OPK test...

nothing really.just feel like writing down sthg here. feel lonely recently.

yesterday, i was very excited because for the very first time ever, my LH OPK (Ovulation Predictor Kit) i bought showed two lines. it was the very first time. i was soo excited. i dont know whether it is real positive though. i read the instruction and it says if the test line is darker/equal colour intensity than the control band, then it's positive. but mine, it turned paler than the control band, and after a few minutes, the colour turned the same as control band.

to be honest, my excitement is greater towards seeing those 2 lines for the 1st time, rather than knowing that i am ovulating (if that's the case). i dont know.i lose hope these past few days. i'm upset being myself. i'm a failure, cant get hold to any job, and wasting hubby's money all the time. i feel down, and lazy to do anything. or is this sadness because of my hormonal imbalance?cannot really tell...

today, hubby came back and got angry at me because i forgot to switch off the iron since yesterday. really, i had no idea that i forgot to turn it off after ironing hubby's oncall scrub yesterday. if only i knew, i would not waste my hubby's money (electricity=money). he kept quiet all evening, even cancelling his plan to go to city because of this mistake.anyway, 'cold war' between us did not last long. as usual, either me or him will forgive each other. isnt it nice like that?but it happened after tears dried on my cheeks as always ;p.