check-up

i am just back from check-up haikal,najya and me in KKB Kota Bharu just now where i had spent 3 hours there. went there around 9.30am,and finished closer to 1 o'clock in the afternoon.

they had checked on najya's growth. she weighed 5kg today, which means she gained 1.4kg in 4 weeks. wah... got his hep b 2nd jab. and haikal got his booster jab which he supposed to get at 18 months old, and he is now already 21 months old (++).

my scar wound was ok. and bp, urine, Hb and everything was ok, within normal range. alhamdulillah. all the rest went fine. i also registered at Klinik Perancang keluarga and was given NORIDAY as contraceptive. i plan to have a gap between Najya and the next baby to give time to let this wound heal properly. i dont know, hoping to have another 2 baby if Allah permits,insyaAllah. (doa dlm hati agar scar sembuh and xde adhesion for the next baby). huhu...

allhamdulillah, abah and che were there to help me out controlling haikal which was very buas and naughty nowadays. cant wait to have maid around and help me out with his behaviour and with the housechores as well.

on the way back, we dropped by at Cikgu Kedai nasi Ulam and had our deserved lunch there.

just for update, im planning to use cloth diapers on najya. and today, the parcel arrived which contained 4pcs Autumz CD. hoping to get started real soon..hehe...

gambar lama...

gambar ketika bertiga dahulu...sekarang berempat =)

new tv

since we bought the alif ba ta cd a few months back, he has been asking us to play that cd over and over again almost everywhere and anytime. initially we enjoy looking at him soo interested in listening to the song (while learning), but after a few months, we become so tired listening to it as he would request to watch/listen to aa baa everytime we watch the tv/we are in car. so, it means we have to sacrifice watching news/aastro/any channel just to listen to his song.same thing happen when we are in car, short or long journey, the cd must be played over and over again. the good thing with him listening to it is that he would stay calmer than usual. otherwise, huhu..

so,yesterday, after few months giving it a thought, and made strengthen by his behaviour conquering the tv to listen to his cd, ayah bought a new tv. a 40" samsung worth rm 2000 ++. initially he wanted to buy a smaller plasma tv for haikal, but thinking that we'll be using that for a long time, he bought that 40" tv.

tq ayah for spending ur money for our comfort. and tq haikal,because of him, we have a new bigger tv. heheh..

update on Najya

najya @ 3 weeks today

this girl who was born 3 weeks earlier on Monday 28th march, is actually keep changing her routine. the first 2 weeks after she was born, she kept sleeping at all times, and sometimes i did have to wake her up for feeding. i guss she really wanted to give a break to her ibu. she slept and only woke up after several hours, had a lot of poo-poo and pee. pampers pon leaked sometimes sbb byk peeing. sng nak menjaga die the first 2 weeks.

this third week, die berubah. bangun pagi2 nak nenen. then, lps mandi pagi2 pon still celik mata.unlike the first 2 weeks where she would sleep soundly after bath. pastu, kdg2 smpai tengahhari pon still bukak mata lagi. tido pon sekejap2.. byk bangun. and nak tido dgn org je sellau. bile letak dlm moses basket, cepat terjaga. bile pakai pampers huggies, selalu leaked. skrg ni tukar pd petpet plak.okayla, x bocor sekerap huggies. banyak kali possetiing recently. baju ibu dan anak pon sekejap je pakai terus bau susu masam.
yg kelakarnya najya ni, kalau mula2 die nak breastfeed ni, die akan try taste the nipple, kalau x sedap, die akan kuarkan balik nipple and suck it again when she feel like it. aha..iyelah, mesti dah coated ngan susu masam kot, tu yg die x suka..

she does not like being waddled. suke tgn kaki lepas je masa tido.x suka dibedung. kalau tido, gaya mcm org tua. aha, dah 3 minggu dah umur najya skrg. cepat je ms berlalu. luka bedah pon dah agak ok dah skrg. kurang sakit, dah boleh move on and about. dah boleh buat kerja rumah ringan2. tapi lately, siang hari asyik berkepit ngan najya je, malam je die tido lama sket. okayla.sampai sini saja.najya dah memanggil...

update on haikal

haikal @ 21 months

very naughty, likes when people chase after him and he will run around the house. there were 2 occasions when he hit the floor on the forehead and caused big haematoma, took almost 2 weeks to properly healed. another one which happened last few days when he hit the floor on his mouth, causind bleading lips. we were so worried that he might broke his teeth, but thank god, it was his lips only.

he does not like wearing diapers nowadays. had to chase him around to catch him to wear him his nappy, where he will struggle, and try to run away. if we could put him the nappy before he run away, we could find ourself in despair as he would try to take it off by any means. sometimes, when he behaves like this, we waste 3-4 diapers in a row..

still could not pronounce 'ibu'. ayah, abah,mama came out very easily from his mouth,but not 'ibu'. last few days, i heard him calling me 'bu, bu' but only that occasion.later when i asked him to call me ibu, he only said 'ayah' several times.anyway, im giving him al the time he needs just to hear him calling me 'ibu'

he doesnt look like a 1year plus toddler.not even a 2 year old one. he looks older. maybe because he was chubbier, taller than the rest of the kids. most of the kids who is older than him but look smaller if compared with him. oh, he's getting better on appetite. last month was when he was sick and lost his weight. but this month, he look chubbier and also heavier on the scale.

well..byk lagi...mls dh nak menaip...huhu...

beza mengandung anak lelaki dan perempuan

i guess i want to jot this down since i think there is marked difference between my pregnancies, and i also want to remember this one so that whenever im pregnant again in the future (which maybe one or two more pregnancies), i could come back to this and make my assumption on the gender.

well, there were few difference that i could think of

1. when i was pregnant of afnan and haikal, they moved A LOTTT...yes, a lott. i still have the video when they moved, and my bump was seriously moving and swaying with their movement. but with najya, she moved a little. and sometime i worried a lot when i could not feel any movement for several hours when she was in my womb. she did kick, wriggled here and there, but not as had and strong as her brothers, that for sure.

2. i was very lazy when i carried najya. but with haikal and afnan, i was energetic, moving here and there, did this and done that. i cooked a lot with the boys, but when the girl was inside, i was soo lazy to cook, hence we ate outside so many times when i was too tired to cook.

3. i tire easily with najya. when afnan and haikal were in, i was so full of energy

4. by the third trimester, my face was soo horrible. i had so may pimples scattered all over the face with najya. and they all left scars on my beautiful face, ahaks. with the boys, my face were clear and smooth. no pimples, no scar!

5. i was like giant with all 3 pregnancies. when i carried najya, my final weight before the delivery was the same when i carried haikal. but haikal weighed much lighter which was only 3.13kg when he came out, but najya was an astounding 3.6kg, beyond the doctor's prediction 3.2 kg.

well, that was all i could think of. seriously, now i miss being pregnant. i miss carrying another life inside me..and feeling them kicking and moving. definitely worth all the hardships whenever i see them safe and sound in my hand sleeping.

somehow, it does remind me of afnan. i miss u son...a lott!!

sepanjang pantang...

sepanjang pantang ni, rasa sgt2 bersyukur sbb ade keluarga yg membantu. abah mama stay with us, looking after haikal. che comes over almost everyday utk mandikan baby, bakar ikan and siapkan my air mandian. alhamdulillah. syukur ya Allah aku mempunyai keluarga yg sebaik ini. Alhamdulillah sgt2...

NUR NAJYA TASNEEM

my 2nd (or third actually) has been safely delivered via elective caesarean section on 28th march 2011 @ 1547pm in Labour Room, Hosp Raja P Zainab 2, Kota Bharu.

Alhamdulillah, thanks to Allah for giving me the chance to experience the wonderful journey of being pregnant for the third time, to deliver her safely and to have her perfect and healthy, and to have family around me (especially my husband n mum) who is loving and caring, and also gave support to me throughout the process of recovery from c-sect. it was a worst nightmare,i mean the 2nd caesarean section, partly because of the longer duration it took to deliver the baby as there was adhesion with my previous scar. however, syukur for it is all over now. i finally have a girl in family. abang haikal eventually has his adik..

the name of the baby had not been finalised until she was born. i like Najya which means victorious, and tokbah and tokma like 'tasneem' which means spring/fountain in paradise. so we combined both names, and officially registered it on day 7 after she was born. alhamdulillah...

here are some of her earliest picture...

saat-saat kelahiran NUR NAJYA TASNEEM =)

26 march -
hari ini sepatutnya aku mendaftarkan diri pukul 8 pagi. tapi ku boleh jangkakan yang aku akan bosan kalau mendaftarkan diri seawal waktu itu. jadi kulewatkan bersiap hingga pukul 10pg. malangnya, ade org insurans dtg rumah berjumpa hubby menyebabkan waktu pendaftaranku terlewat hingga pukul 11 pagi.sesampaninya di LR, aku ditimbang, urine di check, dan FHR di cehck gune daptone. tak lama menunggu, aku disuruh ke wad 11 sambil menunggu kekosongan katil di wad 12 ( wad kls 1). pukul 12 aku masuk wad 11, mulanya hubby meneman.tapi kerana mama abah ada di rumah, hubby terpaksa pulang untuk membeli makanan utk mereka. pukul 4 ptg, ade katil kosong di wad 12, aku mengankat my own beg to wad 12. sedih waktu itu kerana hubby tidak dtg. aku dipindahkan bersama seorang lagi. sedihnya hati mengenangkan aku yg keserorangan mengangakat brg dan melihatkan suaminya mengangkat brg2 pesakit tersebut berpindah wad. sesampainya di wad 12, aku di skin-prep.dan diletakkan di katil 13. hubby dtg melawat petangnya walaupun sudah lewat. che abah dtg melwat hari tu. niat che utk meneman aku di malam itu kuhalang,kerana kesian pd che sedangkan aku tidak sakit apa2 lagi. malamnya, aku tidur keseorangan. rindu haikal

27 march
tidurku x lena. bising dgn suara bayi2 menangis. aku bgn awal,seawal 5 pagi... mandi dan tunggu subuh. aku dipakaikan baju OT dan dipasangkan branula pukul 7am. round pagi itu by specialist, aku di perli kerana dtg lewat hari sebelumnya menyebabkan namaku tidak ade dalam Elective list, sebaliknya dimasukkan dlm Semi-E list. aku berharap agak c-sxn dilakukan hari tu tapi memandangkan ade emergency di OT, aku tidak dipanggil. aku berbuka puasa pukul 3pm.che membeli nasik utkku berbuka. hubby dtg ptg tu melawatku.. sedih..hubby lewat lagi. melawat hanya sekejap kerana terpaksa melayan haikal yg nakal. malamnya che pulang, dan aku tidur berseorangan.

28 march
seperti pg sebelumnya, aku mandi pagi dan menunggu doktor's round. bosan. masih tertanya2 bile kan jadual pembedahanku. ms doktor round, aku baring aje. tidak berminat utk bersoaljawab dgn mereka. buku pa&ma 2 edisi sudah ku baca dr kulit ke kulit.bosan. msg hubby suruh dtg. dlm pukul 12 lebih die dtg. kuluahkan rasa x puas hati kerana aku masih di sini, sedangkan aku sudah masuk dr hari sabtu. hubby menelefon the o&g, and the anaest. x lama lps tu, nama aku dipanggil.sunguh cepat diorg menukar bajuku, memasukkan cbd, dan ot prep kan aku. beberapa minit selepas itu,aku diminta baring di atas stretcher sambil mereka menolak aku ke ot zamrud.sebelum itu kupesan pd hubby utk memaklumkan pd che bhw aku akan dibedah.sesungguhnya rasa CBD itu sungguh menyakitkan. terasa pedih dan mahu kencing sepanjang masa. rasa itu membuatkan aku rasa taknak dibedah pulak rasanya. bile sampai di OT zamrud,anaest and misi bertanya detail2 yg sepatutnya.

di dlm bilik ot, aku diberikan spinal anaesthesia dan intrathecal morphine. dr mostaza yg melakukannya. kali pertama die memberikan anest tersebut,rasanya sgt menyakitkan. aku hanya merasakan renjatan elektrik di sebelah kaki kiriku. terkejut aku.dua kali kejadian itu beerlaku. die meminta maaf, katanya die perlu mengadjust position sblm melakukannya sekali lagi kerana aku hanya merasakan nya pd sblh kiri tidak pd kedua2 kaki. sungguh perit.

kali kedua, die berjaya. kakiku mula kebas2. operation dimulakan. hubby tak masuk OT. kali ini, aku merasakan sakit ketika mereka menekan2 perutku.sungguh sakit sampai aku menangis. pada mulanya mereka memberikan pd dr hafizah untuk melakukannya, namun, dr ros dan dr haida(specialist) terpaksa turun padang kerana ade adhesion of my bladder tto the upper part of lower segment. adhesiolysis terpaksa dilakukan sblm mereka berjaya mengeluarkan baby. rasanya sungguh sakit, masyaAllah dan pembedahan kali ini juga mengambil beberapa jam tak seperti masa haikal dulu yg hanya mengambil ms yg singkat.

alhamdulillah,. pukul 5pm++ aku keluar dr OT dan ditempatkan di recovery. dapat ku lihat baby di dalam warmer. gembira walaupun masih merasa sakit. tak lama kemudian, baby diserahkan pada che bile sampai di ward. hubby masih menunggu di luar. setelah diperiksa keadaanku stabil, tiba masanya untuk memindahkan aku ke wad. kali ini, blood clot evacuation dilakukan oleh misi kerana byk oozing of blood dr vagina. ku halang merekaa dr menyentuh perutku kerana rasanya menyakitkan.

misi2 pon hairan kerana aku merasa sakit terlalu awal, juga dpt menggerakkan kaki sejurus selepas pembedahan. biasanya org hanya merasa sakit slps 6 jam. kali ini sungguh sakit ya Allah.

balik ke wad, aku dilawat oleh abah che and family and abah adin. mama ada kursus dan x dpt hadir. aku gembira. malamnya che menemankan aku. aku asyik menggaru2 muka sampai menggelupas dan malamnya aku mula menggaru seluruh badan. batuk pon terpaksa ku tahan kerana sakit pd perut akibat pembedahan.

29 march 2011
esokkan harinya, aku meminta iv piriton utk diberikan. 20mg iv piriton diberikan dan hanya slps itu aku baru ok dr merasa gatal2. che menemanku sepanjang masa. tapi kesian che, kerana penjaga diminta keluar sms doktor round. kesian pula rasanya melihat che di'halau'. huhu...tokayah dan makaji melawat aku di petang hari..

30 march
dan mula berjalan2. sakitnya masih terasa tapi kugagahkan juga diri.

31 march
hari pulang ke rumah.yeay...