12 days....

~~~ayah~~~

less than 12 days from now. excited, afraid of unknown, happy...all mixed.
anyway,ayah bought baby few clothes in Adam Kids yesterday. actually, ayah went there on his own since ayah and ibu had some misunderstanding about sthg the other day.ayah went out alone,and when he came back,he brought few cute clothes he bought for baby.ehe...ayah ingat baby. =) tapi ayah tak ingat ibu =( ehe...x kisahla...tu tandanya ayah syg baby kan???

on another note, today is ayah and ibu 4th year wedding anniversary. happy anniversary ayah! happy anniversary ibu!!!

may all happy years awaiting u in the future!

sayang ayah and ibu ;)

visit from friends

13 days...

~~~baby~~~

semalam baby dpt visit from kawan2 baby...
kakak Pia, syaireen, buza dan zara..
baby jumpa auntie feeza dan uncle pawie serta aunty farah
auntie malind dan uncle faizul aka sungkai pon ada bersama auntie atikah
baby suka...baby tahu ibu happy ade tetamu smlm
ayah pon sama..

oh tak lupa, aunty syikin dan aunty rose.
nanti aunty rose balik msia, ibu taktahu bile boleh jumpa aunty rose lagi.
aunty syikin, baby ingat, sbb aunty syikin bagi hadiah kat baby.

baby nak kuar dlm 13 hari lagi.
baby suka duduk dlm perut ibu. tapi baby tahu ibu tunggu baby...
nanti kite jumpa ya...nak jumpa ibu dan ayah. 13 hari lagi...
baby nak hayati hari2 dan saat2 terakhir dlm perut comfy ibu nih...;)

14 days...

~~~ibu~~~~

semalam, ibu menghadapi sedikit salah faham dgn ayah. buat ibu sedih sepanjang hari hingga ibu terlupa utk membilang bilangan pergerakan baby. maafkan ibu sayang. fikiran ibu serabut. hati ibu sedih. ibu menangis kan syg? baby ingat lagi tak suara esakan ibu, ibu menangis panggil baby...

semalam, blog ibu dikritik oleh ayah. ayah kata, 'jgn bagitahu semua org ape yg berlaku melalui blog awak, kalau awak nak jaga hubungan perkahwinan kita!'. ibu sedih. ayah bukan berusaha memujuk ibu atas apa yg berlaku semalam, malah ayah tambah menyakitkan hati ibu dgn mengkritik ibu. ibu hanya bercerita yg benar. em...maybe juga salah ibu kerana memaparkan suatu yg x sepatutnya dipaparkan kepada umum. salah ibu kerana ibu bercerita tentang rajukan ayah yang menyebabkan ibu terasa. salah ibu kerana ibu bercerita apa yg sebenar terjadi. entahla...kdg2 ibu x tahu dimana utk meluahkan segala luahan hati ibu ini. kepada blog, dilarang oleh suami. nasib baik baby jugak yg ada...ni yg buat ibu syg baby ni. baby jd teman ibu ye. bila ibu terasa ibu keseorangan, ibu lupa, ibu sebenarnya ada baby. dan abang Afnan. ibu ada anak2 ibu. ibu x keseorangan sebenarnya....

semalam, ibu hapuskan blog lama ibu, ibu tukar addresss ibu ke alamat skrg. biar hanya ibu seorang yg menulis dan membaca. ibu xnak semua org tahu perasaan hati ibu. nanti bila baby dh besar, baby boleh baca blog ibu ini. sekadar luahan hati ibu. jgn bagitahu ayah ye syg. nanti ayah marah ibu lagi. blog ini rahsia kita, ok! kalau2 ibu x ada nanti, baby bace blog ibu ni ye syg. ibu nak baby tahu ibu syg baby sgt2!!!ibu syg ayah juga walau apa yg berlaku!!

Luahan hati...

kebelakangan ini, terasa diri sgt terabai...terasa hati dan perasaan seakan tak dipeduli. sakit hati ini tak dihiraukan. secebis hati ni dirobak rabekkan tanpa ada yg sudi memujuk. kadang2 menangis sendiri dgn berkata, 'aku yg salah. aku yg tak betul.aku yg terlalu mengambil hati. aku yg tak sepatutnya melakukan ini dan itu. aku dan aku si culprit itu!!'

makin melewati usia kandungan yg sarat,isteri yg mempunyai suami yg penyayang pasti memahami, ada hati perlu dijaga kerna saat2 ini saat yg penting utk isteri.isteri perlukan sokongan, bantuan, bukan sekadar pertolongan fizikal,tapi juga emosional. isteri perlu kata2 sayang seorg suami, kata2 semangat, utk isteri menghadapi ms depan yg tidak pasti.

dan masa2 ini bukan masa utk seorg suami merajuk dgn isteri atas hal remeh temeh.

suami sepatutnya memahami, isteri utk dibelai,dimanja,dan dipujuk.dibetulkan kalau tersalah arah. isteri yg dihalusi dgn kata2 nasihat pasti menerima kata2 suami dgn hati terbuka.isteri yg mithali pasti akan berkata, 'terima kasih sayang kerana membetulkan'

dan kalau isteri menegur suami atas sesuatu jalan yg betul kerana Allah,suami harus menerima dgn hati terbuka. bukan dgn cara merajuk. bukan dgn membuatkan isteri rasa serba salah, betulkah tindakannya. perlu difikir rasionalnya. jgn kerana ego semata, sbb isteri yg menegur, hati isteri didera. lagi2 di kala isteri hanya menunggu masa utk melahirkan si putera hasil perkongsian berdua. hati isteri sgt lemah. hanya menunggu belah.

suami harus memahami, isteri kdg2 bukan isteri yg unggul. tapi hanya cuba melakukan yg terbaik utk yg tersayang. isteri cuba, dan cuba, dan cuba untuk memahami suami...walaupun suami kdg2 membiarkan isteri sendiri memujuk duka lara di hati.walaupun bukan salah si isteri...isteri juga yg dipersalahkan. entahla..

karenah suami dan isteri. kdg2 payah utk memahami. hanya berdoa moga suatu hari, moga sejuk sendiri. isteri berusaha memujuk, tapi suami masih degil dgn rajukannya...
biarlah... biarlah...biarlah...

Shandon Street Festival...

this afternoon, after much persuasion from me for hubby to get ready, we eventually out of the house for shopping exactly @ 12.15 noon. first shop we had been to was Aisya's. As we plan to have small gathering today with our close frens here, i went to Aisya to buy 15 marinated tandoori chicken legs.

first thing we noticed when we arrived Shandon Street where Aisya's shop is located was that the shops along that street was decorated with colourful balloons. not knwoing what is going on, i asked hubby. it seemed that we both have no clue what is going on on that street. luckily, before we entered Aisya's, we spot an advertisement on the shop's window informing about Shandon Street Festival that is happened today from 12 noon till 6pm.

I supposed we were 'langkah kanan' to arrive in that venue exactly just before the event started. just after we ordered the chicken legs from the butcher, we started to hear drums and people singing. i asked for excuse from hubby to go to that place since hubby has to wait for the butcher to get our order ready. since it was still early, people were not too many. but just before we left the venue, people started to gather at the place and it became crowded.

anyway, the festival was not happening as what we used to have back in Malaysia. they have few food stalls selling crepes, pizzas, and kebabs. other stalls sell souvenirs, some sells toys, and there are corners where the artist offers free face painting for kids (there was long queve for this) , and the 'balloon man' performs wonders by giving free balloon with different form to kids. (ala,yg tiup and bentuk2 kan belon to jadi anjing la, bentuk love la etc)

we were lucky to be there at the right place and time. xtahu pon ade event ni sbnrnye.
anyway,here are some pictures snapped by me during the event. x lama pon kami kat sini sbb kene balik takut kete kene clamped sbb tak gune parking disc. ehe..

15 days...

~~~ibu & baby~~~

Just another day before baby reaches 37 weeks. yeay...dah nak masuk full term dah baby ibu. lagi 15 hari nak jumpa baby. x sabarnya...

kadang2 pagi2 lepas subuh, baby malas sgt nak gerak. baby tidur ye. ibu kacau2 pon baby tidur. kadang2 ibu risau jugak takut apa2 jd pd baby. tapi biasenye, ibu cool down dulu. ibu tunggu baby gerak. baby selalu mcm tu, time ibu nak baby gerak, baby senyap je. tapi x lama lepas tu baby mesti gerak2... baby ajar ibu supaya bersabar ye ;) bersabar layan karenah baby.

baby selalu gerak dgn agak kuat pagi2 pukul 2-3 am. teman ibu tunggu subuh ye. ehe...
ibu syg baby. tak sabar nak jumpe baby lagi 15 hari...jgn hampakan ibu ye.

16 days...

~~~baby's stuff~~~

We went for shopping yesterday evening. mainly hoping for summer sale, but dissapointed with the sale here. Mothercare, even though has started its sale already, but the offer and the discount is not too appealing for me.did not buy anything there. anyway, we went to Smyth Toys and bought Tomy baby carrier for baby and Avent Breast Pump for me.

To complete the baby list, we bought PseeudoCrem for nappy rash for baby, and adding a few Muslin's Squares as well (just in case we need more). overall, we spent almost 100 euros on these few things alone. yes, it's true when people said that welcoming a baby costs parents a lot.A lot!And this does not include other things that we have bought for the baby.

As long as the baby is healthy, we (i think all good parents are) are willing to sacrifice hundreds, even thousands, or millions of our money just to see the baby smiling back to us....as long as the baby is healthy and happy, makes all these sacrifices worthwhile...

17 days...

~~~ibu~~~

i havent had any major problem so far with this 2nd pregnancy. the morning sickness was not too bad. yes, i have all the pregnancy symptoms but with minor effects on my life. back pain, crampy leg, restless leg syndrome, nausea, carpal tunnel syndrome are the symptoms i have, only to name a few. but knowing that my baby is doing fine makes all the sacrifices/sufferings worthwhile. i will endure everything for u baby. just for u to promise me to be healthy...

happy birthday to mama...

semoga panjang umur, dimurahkan rezeki. dikurniakan kesihatan yg berkekalan InsyaAllah. selamat hari lahir to Mama...=)

18 days...

~~~baby~~~

i always wonder, baby always moves actively and vigorously during any journey by car. i can feel his kicks here and there. informed hubby about this, and hubby said: ' it's either baby likes to travel by car, or baby is not comfortable in your womb as u sit throughout the journey'.
but i have this feeling that baby likes to travel. hehe. kalau kat umah, he will move whenever he likes to do so, no exact time for that, but he without fail will start moving whenever we are in car.
or maybe i am more aware about his movement whenever i have nothing to do/concentrate for ie when i am in car ;)...

on another note, hubby informed me that he was offered to continue his job by Gwen, the HR Manager as medical SHO in Bons without undergoing any interview. but he declined the offer. main reason when i asked him why: 'saya kan nak jaga baby'. even though i reasoned with him that i can always look after myself+baby well, especially after the first few crucial weeks after the baby is born (of course i need him during the first few weeks for me to recuperate from the delivery), wishing that he will reconsider his decision. but,him being determined, he wants to take a break from job plus want to take care this lil munchkin whenever he makes his appearance into this world, hopefully by 13th July.

hm..somehow, i know i will miss Ireland when we go home in August/Sept. plus, i will miss my Afnan so much, dont know when we will visit his grave again after we go home for good. hence, the reason why i ask him to reconsider his decision. tapi hubby x suke kije di sini...

takpelah...hopefully,the grass is greener on the other side. wishing our journey of life will be better in malaysia with loved ones. on the other hand, i miss my family so much! x saba nak balik, tp syg nak tinggalkan Ireland. huhu...

Inchydoney and Bon Fire

sekali lagi (ehe,mcm xde agenda lain ;p) kami pergi ke Inchydoney.
hubby insisted to go there lps balik keje, konon2 nak mandi laut sbb hari ni sgt cerah dan panas. plus, the day will be wasted if we just stay indoor. lagi2 panas yg best mcm hari ni...best mkn ice cream tepi pantai...

kami bertolak pukul 6.30pm. since skrg summer, pukul 6.30 pon makin cerah.siang sgt panjang,subuh pukul 3.15 am lebih kurang,sampai maghrib pukul 10pm. jadinye, 6.30 ptg tu cerah tang tang lagi.

kami smpai Inchydoney pukul 7.47pm. angin sepoi2 bahasa. best. air pulak tgh pasang. kami hampar kain fleece, dan bekal2 nasi dan lauk pauk. hubby yg konon2 nak main air agak hesitant nak mandi, sbb katenya air sejuk. in the end, kitorg bersantai sambil mkn nasi, dan melihat org2 sekitar. sungguh seronok melihat anjing2 bermain bersama tuannya di tepi laut.tuannya baling bola, dan anjing tanduk bola.takpun, tuan anjing baling bola ke dlm laut, terkocoh2 anjing berusaha mendapatkan bola tu kembali di tgh laut.habis bsh2 semua. sgt playful anjing2 kat sini. comel. kdg2 kami gelakkan anjing tu sbb x jumpe bola yg dibaling oleh tuannya. puas mencari di atas pasir, x jumpa. tuan anjing juga yg kene tunjukkan anjing di mana bola tersebut. kelakar...

sejam lebih kami bersantai di Inchydoney. hubby sgt interested tgk org main kayak. konon2nya impian dia la nak beli kayak/kapal satu. hehe...tapi air sejuk pon takut nak mandi. budak2 Irish seronok je mandi manda, biarpun air sejuk.

tak lama lps tu, kami pulang. perut pon dh kenyang. sesampainya kami di Cork dr Inchydoney, kami melihat asap hitam berkepul2 ke langit. ingatkan ade rumah terbakar. adelah 2-3 tempat dilihat dr kejauhan penuh dgn asap hitam tebal.rupa2nya, hari ini adalah hari Bon Fire kat Ireland. mengikut wikipedia;

A bonfire is a large controlled outdoor fire. The word is a contraction of "bone fire". The practice is believed to derive from the Celtic festival of Samhain when animal bones were burnt to ward off evil spirits. Today the practice is still common in Ireland, with bonfires commonly lit for Halloween night, as well as Midsummer in some areas.

In Ireland, bonfires are held on the night of 31 October to celebrate Halloween. In certain areas of Ireland, particularly in Limerick, bonfires are held on 30 April to celebrate the festival of Beltane. In the west and south of Ireland, 'Bonfire Night' is held on the night of 23 June to celebrate St John's Eve.

Nine types of wood are commonly placed into a traditional Wiccan balefire. Collectively these are known as "The Nine Woods" or "Nine Woods". These woods are Birch (representing The Goddess, or female energy), Oak (representing The God, or male energy), Hazel (representing knowledge and wisdom), Rowan (Mountain Ash) (representing life), Common Hawthorn (representing purity and fairy magick), Willow (representing death), Fir (representing birth and rebirth), Apple (representing love and family), and Vine. In some regions, superstition, religious belief, or tradition prohibits the cutting of certain trees, most notably in Witchcraft customs the Elderberry tree; "Elder be ye Lady's tree, burn it not or cursed ye'll be" --A rhyme from an Oral tradition.

kata hubby, hari bonfire ni,kdg2 diorg( especially budak2 jahat) curi dan bakar kereta. oo...tapi besar betul api pembakaran bonfire ni. terasa mcm sebuah rumah terbakar je. biasanya pembakaran dilakukan di kwsn perumahan anak2 dol (homeless people) kat sini.

tak smpat nak amek gambar bonfire td. sbb ms tu kat atas kereta. dan dh malam pon, huby pon x sabar nak balik rumah utk berehat since he will be oncall again the next day.

all in all, hari ni penuh dgn aktiviti bersama dgn hubby. ehe...org kata, hargai ms berdua sblm bertiga. ye tak??hehe...x sabar nak tunggu ms bertiga nanti...

19 days...(countdown episode)

~~~hubby and baby~~~

everytime hubby reaches home from work, he will ask me 'macammana baby hari ni?', or 'banyak baby kicking hari ni?' or hubby will kiss the baby (read: my tummy), or he will try to talk to the baby, or, put his hands on my tummy to feel the baby's movement.

i know he loves this baby soo much. sometimes i wonder, does he love the baby more than me?? hehe.. jeles ngan baby, ape kejadah ibunye ni ;)..

Leaking...

we had problem with water leaking from the water boiler pump since last night which resulted in drenching wet carpet in our hallway. too bad as we would like to invite guests to our house today.

it started around 2 or 3am in the morning. i was on my way to the toilet from the living room to take wudu' when i noticed the wetness of the carpet in the hallway. i told my husband immediately about that. knowing that nothing we can do about it as it involved the water boiler, i told my husband to just informed the landlord the next morning about it. but,being as he is, he cant stay doing nothing when something goes wrong. he spent hours last night trying to find the source of the leakage, and he found it. the water trickled down the pump non stop. as a result, he had all the buckets, the tupperwares, and also includes the baby bath tub to contain the leaking water. our hallway is indeed soaking wet. luckily, with his ideas, we could at least contain the water from spreading to the whole house.

we tried to inform the landlord as early as 7 o clock in the morning, but to no avail.nobody answered the phone, and when hubby went to their house this morning, nobody answered the bell. it was hard for us, as we hardly contained the water inside the bucket/bath tub.it kept flowing. i have to keep empty the bucket, but with me having to go for ANC check up earlier in the morning today, i know the water will be flowing out onto the carpet. that is why we need to have the plumber repair it as soon as possible, otherwise, we will bee sleeping in water bed tonight.

hubby even tried to ring the supplier of the waterpump to find if the could do smething about it. in the meantime, we tried to reach the landlord. the landord was reachable arond 11 am that morning. after informing them about what has happened,she arranged for a plumber to come to our house. i was expecting the plumber to come sooner, but he only appeared in our doorway at 7pm. imagine, by that time, we have been empttying the bucket for 100th time. lembab sungguh!huhu...

but anyhow, he did someting to the water pump. according to hubby who was with hime when he repaired the damage, he said that it was the 'gasket?' inside the water pump that has broken and causing the leakage. he disconnected the water pump to repair it, and he will come back tomorrow bringing the repaired one, together with de humidifier for our wet house. glad that it's over...

ANC @ 36 weeks

i just back from CUMH for my 36 weeks antenatal check-up.
Alhamdulillah, i reached CUMH 15 min earlier than i supposed to, found myself ample of time to find book on pregnancy in the bookstore in the hospital ground. later, queve for my number and seen by midwife in 15 minutes time. really quick than the last time i was there.

well, as for today, my Hb went up to 13.3 from 12.5. it was amazing (and weird) as i havent taken Galfer religiously for the past 4 weeks. i took Galfer whenever i remember to take it.and most of the time, i forgot about it. haha..bad me. anyway, my Hb is fine. so i do not need to worry about it at all.

my urine is fine. NAD. and BP is also fine. i'm flying through this pregnancy ;). anyway, the midwife that attended me did a bit of explanation on Induction of labour (IOL) that i'll be having in 3 weeks time. she answered to all my questions, and i am very satisfied with it. she asked me about my choice of pain reliever during the induction, in which of course i opt for epidural. i think i have a low threshold for pain (from my first experience), thus i better let them know early so that i wont be in agony during my labour.

later, after i finished with her, i waited for another 5-10 minutes before being called again to the consultation room, this time it was not Prof Greene who saw me, but Dr Firas, the registrar. he was nice, very nice. he told me that he knew me the moment that he called in my name, and he is aware of what happened to me as he worked in Limerick before. he said my name seemed so familiar, and yes, he was there when i lost afnan. unfortunately, i could not recall him to be present during that time (well, i tried not to remember).

we had a long discussion about what is going to be happen during my IOL. i will be induced in 3 weeks time, in which i will be admitted to hospital on 12th of July, and will be induced the following day. since he knows my history, he advised me to be actively involved in the management of my labour. if i think the baby is in distress this time, i have to be determined if i want to have Caesarian section or not, otherwise they wont do that. like last time, they just wait and see even though the CTG showed that Afnan was in distress during the labour. he said, it is your baby, and u have the right to make the decision. well, i have to let hubby knows about this as he will accompany me during the labour, i want us to have a consensus when/in what condition do we want them to C-sect me.

we had a long chat about this. he answered to all my Q well. and explained to me that CTG has 50% false positive result. so, i cannot trust on CTG alone as it can produce wrong result 50% of the time.

anyhow, he scanned me. the scan shows that baby is doing fine, and the growth rate matches the gestational age. there was one time when he looked so attentively to the screen monitor trying to find the baby's Doppler which makes me scared in the beginning (i was thinking the worst, thought that he could not find the heartbeat). but later on, he explained that he was trying to find the best angle to look into the baby's Doppler. According to him, the Doppler is obviously fine,as the baby grows well, but considering my case, he just want to confirmed that eveything is ok. he showed me the way he determined the SBP and DBP of the baby. and my baby's BP is great. no sign of any abnormality or any distress. Alhamdulillah.baby is already cephalic, with normal fundus height. normal amniotic fluid volume, with normal placenta. so, no problem so far...syukur...

as for the IOL, i will be given Prostin(prostaglandin) gel during the evening on 12th July, and the will proceed from there.

The next appointment will be in 2 weeks time i which i have to be examine vaginally. huhu...luckily,hubby will be present during that time. and...terfikir nak mintak doktor perempuan la nanti..segan+malu..huhu..

baby...ibu eagerly waiting to see u. be healthy for ibu ok... remember to give ibu a loud cry when u come out from my big tummy...ibu miss u!

Makan-makan...

hubby postcall smlm.
tapi kami masih sempat berziarah ke rumah Ustaz K.Riza utk usrah dan majlis makan2.hehe...

Majlis sepatutnya bermula pukul 4 petang. tapi kami sampai lambat. ni semua gara2 tertidur. hubby tidur sbb penat, tp sy tidur sebab... err...penat kot.haha..dok umah pon penat, apelah..

Alhamdulillah, majlis berjalan lancar. Ustaz memulakan usrah dgn membincangkan isu istiqamah dalam perjuangan. ade 2 jenis istiqamah, istiqomah bil qalb, dan istiqomah bil jawarih (dgn organ). Dalam beristiqomah, tiang kepada istiqamah dlm perjuangan islam adalah pd Imana billah. dan kami juga membincangkan kepentingan lidah dlm perjuangan. kerana organ2 lain akan mengikut apa yg lidah cakap. dan kami juga membincangkan isu2 semasa yg lain.

kemudian,seperti biasa, majlis usrah diakhiri dgn makan2. being a well known good cook, K.riza dan ustaz msk mcm2. mak k.riza pon join same. ade mcm2 juadah, dr nasik lemak berlaukkan ikan bilis/udang/ayam gulai, ke laksa penang dan juga pizza. dessert pulak ade honey dew yg sgt sedap. Alhamdulillah,terima kasih kpd tuan rumah krn menjamu kami makanan yg sungguh enak.

meriah sungguh majlis. tambah2 lagi berjumpa baby2 cork yg semakin membesar bersama ibu bapa mereka. mak ayah K.riza juga sgt peramah, buat kami x kekok utk makan banyak ;p haha...

malamnya, sblm pulang ke rumah dr umah K.riza, kami singgah ke rumah K.aini. K.aini bakal bekerja di CUH bermula 1 july nanti. nampaknya hubby akan selalu la berjumpa dgn anak angkatnya, Aisyah ;p. Oh, buat pengetahuan, Aisyah dan sarah adalah anak2 K.aini& Mas Mahady. Aisyah sungguh rapat dgn hubby. budak tu baru 2 tahun setengah. Adiknya sarah baru 1 tahun. Aisyah, asal nampak hubby je, mesti nak melekat ngan hubby.suka main2 ngan hubby. dalam ramai2 orang, die akan pergi pada hubby saje. sungguh suka die main ngan hubby sambil bergelak2 ketawa. hubby pulak suka layan Aisyah. sbb tu Aisyah tu mcm anak angkat kami ;p.

mcm smlm, sebelum melangkah pulang dr rumah K.aini menolong Mas Mahady mengangkut brg2, Aisyah menangis2 memanggil 'Uncle Puden' berulang kali.sedih suaranya sbb kami sudah mahu pulang. hehe...Attached betul die pada Uncle Puden seorang ini. hehe...

i'm 36 weeks...

Alhamdulillah. i'm almost there now..right now, i'm 36 weeks pregnant, with another 3 weeks to go. x sabarnya. i plan to ask prof greene tomorrow during ANC for the date of induction. yelah..nak prepare mentally and physically.

baby is doing fine, moving and squirming in my womb. i started to feel his presence now in my life. talking to him as if he is in front of me. merajuk ngan hubby pon, boleh mengadu ngan baby. ha, hubby...kalau baby tak syg awak lepas ni, bukan salah saya. sape suruh buat sy merajuk??hehe..

another 3 weeks to go *sigh* lamenye lagi...really looking forward to see my baby. smlm mimpi dpt baby girl. seriously, a girl. and i breastfed her in that dream. lps terjaga, baru fikir..eh baby dlm perut ni girl ke boy??kalau ikut scan aritu, boy. but scan can be deceiving kan??entah2 dpt baby girl. x kisahla...boy or girl, i am and will always love u...

baby,...x saba nak jumpe baby...

Packing...

2-3 minggu ni, asyik melewat2kan je packing barang2 masuk kotak. dari minggu lepas, kotak yg siap di packing tak bertambah2. masih 3 kotak. 5 kotak masih belum diisi. susah...hubby pulak oncall memanjang minggu ni. Oncall dari hari isnin,selasa,dan rabu. hari khamis pulak die postcall, nampak penat. tak berani nak mintak die tolong packing kan brg2.

tinggalnye hari jumaaat je die free.dahla shipping collection hari sabtu the next day. mesti kene siapkan kotak2 tu dan seal mlm jumaat tu jugak. tu pon hubby balik lambat jumaat tu sbb kene siapkan presentation for conference next tuesday.

tapi punyelah susah nak mintak tolong die packing kan barang. die penat kot. oncall berturut2 minggu ni. pulak tu, sabtu hari org nak amekkan boxes kat umah tu, die plak weekend oncall lagi. sian. tak salahkan die bile die malas nak pack brg2 sbb penat keje.tapi... kene siapkan kotak2 tu sbb ade less than 24 hrs utk diorg collect!

lepas disuruh dan dipujuk, hubby pon bersiap2 utk pack kotak2 smlm. dh siap satu box die pack dan seal kan. sy tanya die, ape yg die letak dlm box tu?since die x suke org kacau die susun brg dlm kotak. dan die pon bagitahula ape yg die letak.mula2 ok, until die bagitahu yg die letak scroll mengandungi sijil cert Medicine yg original dlm kotak tu. what??sy x berani nak letak document penting dlm box,takut boxes hilang ms shipping. or basah ms nak hantar ke rumah nanti rosak brg2.or mcm2 dlm fikiran, takut kapal shipping diserang lanunla etc...

tapi standard la, org x letak document penting dlm kotak shipping.bahaya. document2mcm tu kene bwk kat tgn. lagi pulak, bukan berat pon nak masukkan dlm hand luggage bile balik nanti. masukkan dlm beg,senang je. pk-pk, bukan senang nak dptkan cert tu, kene pulun 5 tahun study baru dpt. dan kalau hilang??mana nak cari?? bukan boleh didapati di mana2...UCC je boleh me reproduce balik cert tu. tu pon, bukan murah nak suruh diorg reprint balik. bayangkan, ongkos utk translation sijil dr Latin ke English saje, dah 50eur satu sijil. since, kitorg ade 2 sijil, satu MB BCh BAO, dan satu lagi BMed Sc, sorang dah kene bayar 100 eur utk translate sijil saje. bayangkan kalau hilang n nak suruh diorg reprint???mak oii, duit lagi...

lepas suarakan ke takpuasan hati kat hubby sbb masukkan sijil dlm kotak shipping, terus hubby merajuk. taknak packing kotak lagi. suruh sy packing sendiri. fine, sy boleh buat. xde masalah. sy paham die penat. dan die nak main game release tension sbb penat kije. fine,rehatlah bang.sy buat semua kije. sy seal 2 kotak, dan pasang lagi the rest of the kotak. amek brg2 yg nak dishipping dan satukan dlm box. sy x kisah. sy boleh buat. sy sarat mengandung, tapi tak bermakna sy bergantung 100% pada org lain utk buat kerja2 yg sy boleh buat.

tapi sy sedih. bile sy mintak die amekkan beberapa kotak slow cooker/steamer atas kabinet yg tinggi atas dapur. saya takut sy jatuh kalau panjat tpt tinggi sbb nak amekkan kotak tersebut. sy takut kalau apa2 jd pada baby sy. sy bagitahu hubby,mintak die amekkan. die tgk sy, dan die sambung tidur (masa tu die baru lepas abes main game berjam-jam). sy sedih. sy tahu die penat. sy biarkan die main game utk die lepaskan penat.sy hanya mintak tolong minta die amekkan kotak kat tpt tinggi tu je.

sy tunggu die amekkan, tapi nampaknye die sudah tertidur. penat barangkali. sy amek kerusi, dan panjat utk amek kotak tersebut yg berada pd tpt yg sgt tinggi. Alhamdulillah, selamat.sy x jatuh. dalam hati, sblm naik kerusi capaikan kotak tersebut,sy niatkan supaya hati ni jangan marah2 suami. sy takut kalau sy jatuh ms naik kerusi, sy takut kalau nafsu amarah sy buat sy tergelincir ms panjat kerusi. sy syg baby sy. sy xnak derhaka dgn marah2 pd suami juga. yg sy boleh buat, sy buat. sy xnak susahkan sapa2.lagi pulak kotak2 ini akan diambil hari ni pukul 8pg.sy perlu siapkan kotak2 ini sblm 8 pagi. skrg sudah pukul 5pg. sy masih perlukan brg2 utk diisi dlm kotak. hubby tgh tidur, sy xnak kacau die...

satu mslh sy skrg, brown tape dh abes. macammana nak seal kotak?? ade 3 kotak tak di seal lagi. dah janji ngan org shipping diorg dtg collect pukul 8. kedai jual brown tape pulak bukak pukul 10am. mcm mana ni? sy risau. perlukah sy bagitahu hubby. tp die tgh tdo. dan sy xnak kacau die. nanti die kene angkut kotak ke tingkat bwh. die kene rest byk2.nanti nak kene oncall lagi pukul 10 pg nanti.sian hubby sy...

(maaf, ini cerita x berkaitan dgn sapa2.saje nak luahkan perasaan. kan blog ni diary sy.anyway, sy syg suami sy ;) )

Red Cliff...

this past few days asyik dok nonton Red Cliff je yg baru di download. dari Red Cliff 1 ke Red Cliff 2. menarik. kisah benar negara China,semuanya bermula disebabkan ketamakan kuasa,harta, wanita dan wilayah.

jalan cerita yg menarik. terkesan dgn teknik/taktik perang yg sungguh strategik.

dalam hati, teringin anak yg di dlm kandungan ini menjadi seorang pahlawan yg berjasa. yg menyelamatkan maruah bangsa agama dan negara. aduh.. semua ni disbbkan cerita Red Cliff ini.agak2 peperangan di zaman Rasulullah pon mempunyai taktik yg lebih canggih,cume kite x memaparkannya di kaca Tv.

more info about Red Cliff can be obtained here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Red_Cliff_(film)

Apam Balik....

hari ini sgt mls msk. yet, sgt nak makan. so, hasilnya, jadilah apam balik ini. first time buat, taktahu pulak resepi die simple saje. as usual, the recipe was taken from www.myresipi.com

recipe A.P.A.M B.A.L.I.K is as below:

Bahan-bahan ( 4-5 orang )

2 cawan tepung gandum
½ cawan gula
1 sudu teh soda bicarbonate
1 sudu teh baking powder
Sedikit pewarna kuning
1 biji telur
1½ cawan air
Sedikit mentega/planta untuk mengoles
Bahan tabur : Kacang tanah yang sudah dikisar

Cara-cara

1. Mesin gula bersama telur hingga kembang,
2. Masukkan soda, bicarbonate, air dan pewarna kuning. Mesin lagi hingga sebati.
3. Masukkan tepung dan mesin lagi sehingga sebati. (ADUNAN SIAP)
4. Oleskan planta di permukaan kuali & tuangkan 1 senduk adunan tadi, kemudian nipiskan.
5. Biarkan seketika & sementara menunggu masak, taburkan bahan tabur di atas.
6. Apabila cukup masak, angkat dan dilipat DUA sebelum dipotong.

well, obviously, being a not-so-good cook, the appearance of the apam balik is not that appealing.tak mcm psr malam punye. but the taste is marvellous.exactly like what i used to taste back home. oh...sgt nak balik m'sia...teringat mknn2 yg dijual di pasar malam.huhu...

*some adjustment to the recipe as i dont have yellow coloring. plus i put some sweetcorn inside it.

false alarm...

entah kenapa, lepas hubby balik td, start rasa tak selesa. segala bende dibuat rasa x kene. berbaring tak selesa, duduk menegak pon tak kena. entah apa yg yg tak selesanya pon taktahulah..

mula2 ok lagi. tapi lepas hubby terlena di atas sofa, perasaan ni mcm betul2 mengganggu. asyik berubah2 kedudukan mencari position yg paling sesuai di atas sofa.

tiba2 rasa nauseous yg amat. segala dibuat utk menahan loya tak menjadi. dalam rasa nak muntah tu, tiba2 rasa sakit perut menyengat. rasa perut menegang tiba2. nak kata braxton hick's contraction, tak logik rasanya. sbb BHC tak sakit. tapi ni sakit. nak kata in labour pon,tak pasti. sbb jarak antara one contraction to another more than 10 minutes. dalam kepala,dok pk. janganla baby kuar skrg, still premature. baru 35 weeks plus. at least, nak baby kuar after 37 weeks, baru kurang risiko utk bermasalah.

tgh2 sakit perut tu, tiba2 terus rasa nak muntah. dan terus termuntah dgn kuantiti yg amat byk.keluars semua yg dimakan satu hari ni. mula2 terkejut juga sbb muntah berkaler merah, takut darah. kemudian, baru teringat, yg ptg td, asyik minum air sirap sejuk 2-3 gelas. sbb tu rupanya muntah merah td.

kemudian, lps muntah, terus perut memulas yg amat. bagitahu hubby yg sy sakit perut. hubby kate maybe sbb nakgi toilet kot utk mem'buang'. mula2 x rasa nak pegi toilet (itu sbb pk perut sakit sbb contraction). kemudian, perut terus memulas yg amat yg memrlukan ke toilet dgn kadar segera. rupa2nya perut sakit td sbb diarrhoea. bukan sbb contraction.

bile ingat2 balik, baru terfikir yg td termakan nasi goreng smlm yg mungkin dh rosak. plus, td termakan sedikit nasi ayam tapau smlm yg dh rasa lain mcm.sbb tu kot diarrhoea. and perut sakit td sbb vigorous intestinal peristaltic movement kot. alhamdulillah, dh terfikir td yg sy mungkin in labour kalau contraction berterusan. huhu...dh siap terfikir risk of having premature baby dlm kepala...nasib baik bukan.

Alhamdulillah... false alarm rupanya. Alhamdulillah sekali lagi...

busy weekend...

very very busy weekend indeed for both of us...

actually, we have been busy since the past week with packing all our stuffs into boxes for shipping to Malaysia this coming weekend. 8 boxes, with a lot of things to be packed. unfortunately, hubby like to do all the packing on his own. i just need to show him what things to be packed, and he will do it on his own. he feels like doing tetris puzzle while arranging all the stuffs inside those boxes. he always dissatisfied with me doing the packing, for the main reason because i always forget what thing and which box i put in certain thing.blame the hormones, i have becoming very forgetful and clumsier during this pregnancy. ;p

anyway, we managed to packed stuff into 3 boxes on Saturday morning, 2 were done the day before, and 1 box were sealed just before our guests arrived on saturday. 5 more boxes to go. huhu...and we have to get those boxes ready before this coming saturday morning for the boxes to be collected. poor hubby, he has to do the packing, and he also has to bring those boxes down the stairs on his own this weekend. 3 flight of stairs, as our apartment is on the third floor. imagine, with my 'sekepeng' hubby, has to do all those labour work..sian suamiku...aku tidak dpt membantu.skdr menolong hubby packing. nak mengangkat brg berat2, x mampu..takut terberanak..hehe...

oh,did i mention that we received guests over the weekend. K.azy and his husband, taki, and his cute 4-yr-old son, Muslih came over to cork from Galway for house hunting in Cork. since the distance from Galway to Cork is not near, they informed us that they will 'tumpang' stay overnight at our house, in which we welcomed with open heart. kami sukela kalau ade tetamu dtg rumah. they managed to find the house in Douglas which fit the criteria they were looking for. luckily for them, the rent for the houses has been plummeting over the past few months. they got a big house with 3 bedrooms and 3 bathrooms for only 900 euros monthly rent. if the same house were to be rented a few months back, it would cost them 1200 euros monthly rent. i guess the recession somehow affected the house's rent, which benefited the tenants, but causing those landlord huge lost.

they arrived in our house on Saturday afternoon. on that evening, after they paid the deposit on the house they booked, we all headed to our favourite restaurant, Banna Thai in Cork City. felt like eating Thai food after a few days eating my own cooking. we had a joyous evening together, chit chatting about our lives and many other things which include the prospect of future investment. by the way, taki is very good in this area, as he has been doing researches on this matter.
and, not to forget, we had good feast too. i ordered stir fried mee, with hubby enjoyed his usual meal, nasik goreng. hehe..


k.azy,muslih,taki and hubby in Banna Thai

we finished eating around 11 pm. headed home from the restaurant , we watched Battle Royale 2 before everyone were too tired and sleepy to continue finishing the whole movie.anyway, i slept early that night. too exhausted, i guess.

the following morning,I woke up early and cooked nasik goreng and keropok for our breakfast meal. after few hours spent on playing games (hubby, Taki, and Muslih played together,with me and K.azy became the observers), we all went to Limerick to attend Syikin's kenduri. i dropped by to pick Shikin, Oni, and Roque before heading there as they did not have transportation to go to Limerick, plus Shikin were post call. poor her.nampak penat....

we arrived Limerick around 3 pm. the house were almost full by the time we reached there. syikin buat makan sungguh2 ha...hehe...she invited almost all families in Limerick.hehe...dahla she did that all alone, plus the big help from Syasya and Fida on that day. ganas la syikin. ingatkan nak contribute trifle for her kenduri, tapi x sempat nak cari barang2 and nak buat. sorry syikin.

makan2 lagi kat umah syikin. she cooked nasi ayam, BBQ chicken, sossages, burgers, nuggets, desserts and plus mcm2 lagi.sungguh kekenyangan...thank u syikin. hehe..siap tapau lagi tu sblm balik rumah.hehe...met a lot of people...k.azah,along,asyikLin, dora,rad,darlene, k.jazz bell, k.yuli and many more. heppi,and heppi... byk betul borak...

i met k.atie & juki there as well.we did hilarious thing by comparing between us which bump is bigger.haha...k.atie's EDD is at the end of august. it's her third baby anyway. also met k.azah which due around at the same time as k.atie. huhu..all with big bumps..hehe...obviously, i think i'm the winner. been 'complimented' by many others about how huge my tummy is.hehe...

eheh...tak kisahla...besar mana pon my perut,as long as my baby is healthy.haha...yg pasti, kene ber diet la lepas ni.dats for sure. skrg, makan, and makan lagi...sblm pantabf,hehe.before balik Cork dr rumah syikin,we had fun just watching and playing with Iman, asyik-lin's son.sgtla loyar buruk, and active. hehe...lawak betul Iman tu. semua tergelak tgk kata2 spontan Iman.

anyway, here are some pictures taken today at syikin's house...perut ku doubling its size after all the meal.siap oni cakap, 'bestla nampak fizah..' i asked, 'kenapa?' and she said 'boleh makan x renti2'. haha..i laughed out loud. true, my appetite has been skyrocketing this past few months, i think that explains why my tummy is huge. haha...


me.shikin mohamad (shiMo). syikin kamarudin (syiKam). hubby.




Nuha, asyiklin's daughter

Preparing for the big day...

got this from eumom.ie. tgh prepare brg2 baby into his bag.
to abang, this time i wont forget about the nappy ;)

FOR LABOUR WARD

1) Outfit for mom
A loose nightdress for labour
Dressing gown
Slippers
A pair of warm socks

2) Outfit for baby
Vest
Babygro
Cardigan
Hat
Nappy

3) Comforts
Vaseline/Labello for lips
Facial spray or facecloth
Camera / videocamera
Magazines

Carpal Tunnel Syndrome...

this carpal tunnel syndrome that i have been experiencing for the past couple of days is really annoying. it wakes me up from sleep. it caused me burning pain and tingling sensation all over my hands. and it is really disturbing when i have it while i'm typing this very sentence. so very irritating lah...huhu...

kematian...

ajal maut di tangan tuhan. dr sblm kelahiran lagi, Allah dan tentukan rezeki,jodoh ajal maut kita. ajal kite tak akan sedetik berkurang atau bertambah masanya...

hari ni, my sis bagitahu ade kawan2 lelaki satu batch ngan die accident kerete kat Egypt. ade 5 org dlm kereta, seorg sudah kembali ke rahmatullah. dua org lagi cedera ringan/trauma saje, the other 2,still comatose. sorang suffers from intracranial haemorrhage/brain laceration awaiting surgery, the other one pon tgh tunggu operation for broken bony parts,pon koma.

Innalillahi wainna ilaihi rajiun...

dari Allah kite dtg, kepada Allah kite kambali.

semoga Allah tempatkan arwah di kalangan para solihin, dan semoga sahabat 2 lagi selamat dlm operation yg akan dtg. mari kita sama2 sedekahkan Alfatihah buat arwah.

UTUSAN MALAYSIA ONLINE, ARKIB : 15/06/2009
Muhammad Amar selamat dikebumi

Oleh ABDUL MUIN SAPIDIN
muin.sapidin@utusan.com.my

KEPALA BATAS 14 Jun - Jenazah Muhammad Amar Zulkiflie (gambar), pelajar Malaysia di Universiti Kaherah, Mesir yang maut dalam kemalangan jalan raya pada Khamis lalu selamat dikebumikan hari ini.

Suasana sedih dan pilu menyelubungi Tanah Perkuburan Islam Taman Bertam Indah di sini, ketika jenazah Allahyarham diturunkan ke liang lahat kira-kira pukul 6.30 pagi.

Jenazah Allahyarham tiba di Lapangan Terbang Antarabangsa Kuala Lumpur (KLIA) pukul 10 malam semalam sebelum dibawa dengan van jenazah Jabatan Agama Islam Wilayah Persekutuan (Jawi) ke rumah keluarganya di Taman Bertam Indah.

Sejurus tiba kira-kira pukul 4.50 pagi, keranda dibuka bagi membolehkan ibu bapa Allahyarham, Zulkiflie Ismail, 47, dan Siti Fatimah Ramli, 46, serta adik-beradik dan sanak-saudara melihat jenazah untuk kali terakhir.

Selepas itu, jenazahnya dibawa ke Masjid At-Taqwa dan disembahyangkan selepas solat subuh.

Zulkiflie yang ditemui selepas upacara itu memberitahu, dia bercadang untuk mengerjakan upah haji sebagai memenuhi hasrat Allahyarham untuk menunaikan ibadat umrah sebelum ini.

"Allahyarham pernah menyatakan hasrat untuk mengerjakan umrah pada bulan Ramadan ini. Saya akan cuba melakukannya secepat mungkin dan semoga amalan itu akan diterima oleh Allah," katanya.

Muhammad Amar, 21, pelajar perubatan tahun tiga di Universiti Kaherah, meninggal dunia apabila kereta yang dinaiki bersama empat rakannya terbabas sebelum merempuh pembahagi jalan ketika pulang dari Ain Sokhna, Kaherah, kira-kira pukul 3 pagi Khamis lalu.

Empat lagi rakannya yang berusia lingkungan 20-an iaitu Abdul Rahman Ramdzan patah lengan kanan, Akram Abdul Kadir masih koma manakala Muhamad Fitri Tokiran dan Saif Jamaluddin hanya cedera ringan.

Sementara itu, Siti Fatimah memberitahu, dia bersyukur kerana urusan pengebumian jenazah anaknya berjalan lancar dan terharu dengan kehadiran orang ramai termasuk rakan- rakan anaknya.

"Makcik bersyukur kerana mendapat lebih ramai anak hari ini. Awak semua makcik anggap sebagai anak makcik sendiri kerana sudah menjadi kawan baik kepada Amar.

"Jadi sekurang-kurangnya makcik masih ada ramai anak lain," katanya merujuk kepada kira-kira 50 rakan persekolahan Allahyarham dari Maahad Tarbiyah Islamiyah (Matri) Beseri, Perlis yang hadir pada upacara pengebumian itu.

GP visit @ 34+ weeks

actually, i am 34+4 weeks today.

alhamdulillah, quite a satisfactory visit to my GP today.x tunggu lama pon for my turn.

anyway, baby is doing fine, with good movement. fetal heart rate is fine. BP is ok. and urine is NAD. overall, my baby and me are doing great.yehoo!

however, the morning i woke up before getting ready to see the GP, i actually was shocked looking at both of my hands. they were oedematous. they looked like as if they are giant alien's hands. i felt tingling sensation all over the palmar and dorsal part of the hands, partcularly around the median nerve distributions on the hands. i guess i got carpal tunnel syndrome plus the oedema. since my feet was fine, i think it was partly because of my sleeping position. i slept on my right side this am as i could not bear having back pain whenever i sleep on my back. but the oedema also affects the left hand. so, could it be other problem??

i was worried, thinking that i might have pre-eclampsia with sudden swollen hands and legs. but thinking carefully, my BP and my urine have been fine all along, and i dont have any other symptoms of pre-eclampsia,no headache,no nausea or vomiting, or epigastric pain. plus, it's only happened today, and i am on my way to GP anyway. since the GP find nothing wrong with me, i think it's just false alarm. being overly anxious about myself could not help me in this case. oh, please tell me to not worry about myself...

anyway, my next visit to CUMH is on this coming 22nd june @ 36 weeks. hoping that everything is smooth sailing this time. baby, i cant wait to see u!!

donut..

masa malas nak masak, masa tu lah terasa nak makan macam2. kelmarin dh x masak, sbb nak habiskan nasi ayam yg x habis lagi. pastu,since pagi td lauk dh abes, hubby pulak oncall overnight hari ni, terpaksa la korbankan waktu tidur pagi td masak lauk utk hubby.

ehe..sbnrnye, x terasa nak tido pon pg td sbb ptg tu dh tido banyak,ditambah2 sejuk sbb hujan,lagila syok tido. anyway, sure org rumah sebelah terkejut,pukul 2 am, bunyi blender dr umah kami.masak ayam msk merah+sayur campur utk hubby di dinihari. ehe... basuh kain pon pagi2. mesti diorg pelik,nocturnal ke kitorg ni. siang senyap,malam berjaga.

anyway, td asyik diarrhoea je.taktahu la mkn ape.nak trace balik pon, x terbilang. mknn2 yg dimakan td. asyik dok makan je lately.mulut asyik nak mengunyah walaupun perut dh kenyang. teruk betul..

anyway, tetibe mengidam nak mkn donut arini. kalau ikutkan hati, mls betul nak msk.hubby pon x balik mlm ni since die oncall. tp sbb mengidam sgt nak mkn, terpaksa lah buat. kalau x buat, mcmmana nak mkn? nak gi beli kat kedai pon malas. malas nak bersiap and turun naik tangga semata2 sbb nak beli donut saje. lagi plak,nak save energy sbb esok kene jalan gi GP kat bandar.aha..alasan sbb mls nak gi bandar sorang2. walaupun bandar cork ni 5 minit je jalan dr rumah, punyelah mls nak kuar. best kalau jalan2 ngan hubby. kalau sorang2, xde daya nak shopping. x seronok rasenye.

anyway, disebabkan kemalasan nak buat, tapi nak makan, plus takde bekas donut, so, donut ku berbentuk bulat2 dicucuk gune lidi. bukan sbrg donut. donut yg ni xde lubang kat tgh.haha...ku namakan donut ini 'donut malas'.haha...


okaylah jugak resepi die, resepi ni di amek dr www.myresipi.com. tapi kalau boleh lagi gebu,lagi best kot. kulit dh rangup. cume isinya x begitu mengancam. tp bolehla...1st time buat.selalu dok makan org lain buat/beli kat kedai je. sekurang2nya anak ibu ni x kempunan mkn donut kan??betul x b??hehe...

to abang yg oncall, may u have a quiet oncall night tonight. hoping that crazy sister nun wont be working tonight with u. td call hubby,mcm bunyi busy je. ntah2 sister nun to 'on' kot tonight. hubby has been complaining for ages about this particular sister nun aka sister manager, she has this power to make the wards busier, and the admission lists bigger. time die oncall, time tu lah semua patient yg awaiting elective admission die pangggil dtg hospital penuhkan ward sampaikan xde bed kosong dah. yg penat SHO/intern la, sbb kene wat admission yg x henti2 tu. kdg2 bukan urgent case pon, boleh je dtg time office hour. tp sbb die, patient dtg out of office hours. teruk betul. kalau urgent case,lain cerite. anyway, hubby dh excited sbb lagi 3 minggu kije,then boleh rilek2 kat umah sblm balik msia..yeay...ade hubby kat umah, x sunyilah nanti dok umah sorang2...

result MRCP...

official result kuar 16th June ni. tapi provisional result dh kuar baru sat tadi...yang pasti, aku fail!! hehe... mmg x risau pon psl exam sbb kuar je dewan xm, instinct kate akan fail pon. aha...

hubby??em..kene tanya die pass ke tak.

perasaan??? mixed feeling. dissapointed yet convinced that failure is the definite result considering my worse performance during the exam.

nak cuba lagi??tengokla...for sure, my heart and my gut says that i'm not into General/internal medicine.but who knows, my preference might change in the future.

abes tu, nak amek ape??? em..maybe Paediatrics, or Obs Gynae,or radiology,or pathology, or maybe Maxillofacial surgeon!! aha... dulu2 nak jadi dentist,alih2 jadi doctor. Maxillofacial surgeon would be a combination of both,medicine and dentistry. entahlah...my heart is definitely not on General Medicine.

sedih tak ni??err...sedihla jugak.sape x sedih kalau fail.huhu...

Aktiviti hubby di hujung minggu...

1) Jalan2 di Connemara, Co. galway dgn wifey (+baby).


2) hubby basuh kereta (err..after more than a year tak basuh/vacuum kereta) =) tu pon after great insistent & encouragement from his wife..


3) kemas barang2 di rumah wifey kat Galway dan angkut ke Cork. above:wife's house in College gate, Galway.

Gift...

a belated birthday gift from syikin...thank u syikin! such a lovely gift.i love it,and i love u too...sayang syikin, muahhhs...

(though syikin x tahu kewujudan blog ni, tapi nak bagitahu jugak...sayang syikin!! syikin la teman di kala susah,teman di kala senang...thanks dear =) )

8+ months...

me at 34 weeks...


baby has 5 more weeks to go before making his appearance in this world. but, baby is already grateful for aunty syikin has given a lovely gift to baby today. baby wants to say 'thank u aunty syikin. baby loves u!!' baby likes it soo much...

Nak letak ape nama baby ni???

sampai skrg, baby Adik Afnan ni masaih tak ada nama. susah betul nak cari nama baby kali ni. masih berfikir-fikir nama yg sesuai...

mula2, masa awal2 mengandung, selalu terfikir nama baby lelaki. langsung x fikir nama baby girl walaupun masa tu masih x tahu yg baby yg dikandung skrg baby boy. selalu dok pk nama Adham, sbb nama tu macam dekat betul gaya sebutannya dgn nama Afnan. Ahmad Afnan, Ahmad Adham. sedap kan nama tu? sng nak menyebutnya. mula2, cari jugak maksud adham dalam buku nama2 bayi Islam versi Melayu, maksudnye 'yg cantik'. sama maksud dgn afnan, 'yg cantik/berseri' jugak. (maksud Afnan berbeza ya dlm Alquran ye =) ) tapi, bile surf dlm internet, adham bermaksud 'black/hitam'. ade website merefer adham sbg 'black stallion/kuda hitam'.

masa bagitahu hubby mula2 dulu psl berkenan dgn nama adham ni, hubby mcm setuju. iyelah, maksud 'yg cantik', sama pulak maksud afnan. sukalah..abang adik maksud yg sama. cume, bile dibagitahu hubby psl adham maksudnye hitam, hubby mula gelakkan. suke dipanggil2 baby dgn adham. panggil 'baby hitam' kat baby yg di dlm perut ini. nakal betul hubby.

anyway, lps pk2 balik, taknak la nama adham. nanti dipanggil2 hitam dr kecil. entah2 betul2 lahir hitam. kalau hitam kulit takpe, sbb hitam itu menawan, tapi kalau perangai pon hitam, xnakla...kan nama anak itu doa. kalau nak anak soleh, kenala nama yg diseru sbg doa tu pon bermaksud elok. sabda rasulullah:

"Sesungguhnya kamu akan diseru pada hari kiamat dengan nama-nama kamu, dan nama-nama bapa kamu, maka indahkan nama kamu itu" (HR Abu Daud)

dulu, masa mengandungkan Afnan, langsung x decide nama baby awal2 masa mengandung. cume masa mama Adin dtg sblm kami grad, mama abah mengaji Quran kat living room. tiba-tiba mama came accross Afnan dalam Surah Ar-rahman. (maksud spt di bwh)

"But for such as fear the time when they will stand before (the Judgement Seat Of) their Lord, There will be two Gardens- Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?- Cointaining all kinds (of trees and delights);- Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?- In them (each) will be two springs flowing (free); Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?- In them will be fruits of every kind, two and two. Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?" ~Surah ArRahman

Afnan (Template:ArB) is a Arabic word which can be found in Sura Ar-Rahman of the Qu’ran. It is essentially used as one of the elements to describe a specific place in the heavens. The direct translation of the word is "Branches with Leaves". Hence, the aforementioned place is a peaceful setting which is covered in shade and full of fruits.

mama kata, 'cantik betul maksud afnan ni. ape kata nama kan afnan'. mase tu kami baru 3 bulan pregnant. xpk betul2 lagi nama baby. entah kenapa, nama afnan tu macam lekat spjg2 tempoh mengandungkan afnan. walaupun x difinalize hingga ke saat akhir waktu nak bersalin, tapi nama Afnan tu sentiasa ingat di kepala. hubby pon suke sgt dgn nama Afnan. maksudnya elok, ada dlm Quran pulak tu. plus, sng nak mnyebut, dan bunyinya betul2 lembut di dengar. tambahan lagi neneknya yg memilih. kami betul2 suka nama tu.

hinggalah ke saat akhir waktu afnan lahir meninggal sewaktu labour, nama tu masih di kepala.x ada nama lain. sehari selepas Afnan lahir, nurse tanya, nak namakan baby dgn nama apa utk dimasukkan dlm sijil kematian. mase tu, terus terpacul Afnan. yes, Afnan. nama anak ibu adalah Afnan. tapi mase tu, mama tanya, nak namakan Ahmad ke, Muhammad. mama kata, Ahmad tu nama panggilan nabi di syurga, Muhammad panggilan nabi kita sms sblm kewafatannya, sms baginda di atas bumi.

spontan bile mama terangkan,ibu terus decide, nama anak ibu, 'Ahmad Afnan'. sbb Afnan lahir terus ke syurga. Afnan suci, x buat dosa. sesuai betul dgn nama anak ibu yg satu ini. terus ke syurga tunggu ibu ayah di sana dgn nama yg ibu ayah berikan. thanks to mama juga...sbb mama yg namakan cucu sulung die yg sorang ini.

habis cerite psl asal-usul nama afnan.kali ini, betul2 xtahu nak namakan ape adik afnan ni. adik yg kat egypt tu beriya bagi nama mcm2..aflah la,ammjad etc...smua dh masuk dlm list cuma x di finalise kan lagi. teringat seorg collegue, Irish, name die Paedar, lps die tahu my story of having still birth baby, dan die tahu yg i'm currently pregnant, die ty, 'xnak namakan Afnan jugak ke utk baby yg ni?'(in english)... terkedu sekejap bile die tanya...then, terus jawab ' for me, every baby is unique. i dont want to name them with the same name.As there is only one afnan for me. he is the one, and will be the only one in my life.' die angguk2...

dlm hati,berjanji, there will be no second afnan. dlm hati,afnan yg itu.hanya yg itu. rohnya di langit, jasadnya di Dublin. xkan sama kalau ade anak lain nama sama dgn Afnan...

berbalik kepada persoalan...

nak letak baby ni name ape??huhu...adham?hitam pulak maksudnya...tina (my besfren) kate, letakla abyad, maksudnya 'putih'. haha...

yg pasti, ade certain criteria utk nama anak2 ku:

1) nama nya mesti bermaksud yg elok sahaja. lagi bagus kalau namanya ada dlm Alquran, mcm nama 'afnan'
2) simple dan sng dipanggil. x perlu nama panjang, kerana nanti pasti dipendekkan. contohnya, Afnan. kalau afnan hidup,mahu kupanggil 'afnan' bukan 'nan'. cube bayangkan kalau nama yg lebih panjang,yg pasti, pasti dipendekkan dgn nama manja. kalau boleh, biar nama yg sbg doa itu dipanggil sewajarnya dgn nama tersebut tanpa singkatan. nanti doa x sampai...
3) 2 suku kata sahaja...
4) taknak nama comercial...hehe...sy ni agak kuno mungkin.haha...nak nama simple2 je...xnak danish/damia etc...kalau nama sahabat nabi pon best jugak. muaz, abu dzar..semua nama cantik2...

entahla...ape lagi ye criteria utk namakan baby ni??anyway, anybody has suggestion? pening betul pilih name baby ni. bangga tau kalau name kite kite suggest terpilih.contohnye nama adikku Dalia, itu name yg ku pilih.hehe...so, sape2 ade suggestion,sile bagitahu ye..=)

(to iti, pls listkan nama2 baby yg awak nak suggest kat sy...sy ingat afew jek yg awak bagi aritu. and the website address plis..lupa nak salin name website aritu. TQ)

Panas...

panas betul kebelakangan ini. mmg summer biasenye akan panas, tapi Ireland panas?? selalunya ireland ni weather tetap x menentu walaupun summer. mesti ade jugak hujan or cold days walaupun summer. tetapi, tahun ni, memang agak panas la, dah berturutan beberapa hari ni panas...jadinya, siang kami pakai kipas, tidur pon pakai kipas.

dah 2-3 malam kami tidur kat living room depan kipas. hubby siap punggah semua bantal-bantal dgn selimut ke living room sbb stuffy dan panas dlm bilik. alasan je hubby tu, sebenarnya nak tgk tv/main game before tido.hehe... (mcm sy xtahu ;p)

anyway, semalam jalan2 kat bandar dgn hubby after hubby balik kije. seronok, panas betul. tgh contemplating nak beli ke tak sun block ni? spf 15, 30??aha...sbnrnye, baru je tahu psl spf ni. time borak2 ngan k.rose aritu, k.rose mention psl SPF and its strength. aha, x penah tahu sblm ni yg sun block cream pon ade byk2 strength utk block UV sunlight.

anyway, panas betul smlm, mat saleh suke lah...jalan2 tanpa baju (lelaki), yg perempuan, pakai singlet/bra je. aduih...memang Muslim kene kuat iman la jalan2 time summer nih. hehe...lagi2 lelaki. mencabar betul. di mana2 pemandangan tetap sama. hish...bahaya bahaya...hehe...

Gloria jeans-coco loco and mango smoothie

Sembang-sembang...

semalam smpat kami sembang2 dgn kak rose, isteri kepada chef azrul di rumah mereka. asalnya, plan kami hanya utk mendapatkan kotak2 utk shipping brg ke Malaysia (k.rose azrul agent shipping putraventure). tapi, k.rose telah menyediakan juadah petang utk kami. sungguh enak, pengat pisang serawa dan mee goreng. langkah kanan betul since hubby pon mintak mskkan chow mein mee utk die ptg tu.rezeki, alhamdulillah. dh xyah masak...

sambil makan, kami bercerita ttg kisah hidup masing2. k.rose ni tidaklah begitu asing pd kami.setiap tahun pasti kami dijemput ke open house raya di rumah k.rose. orangnya sgt peramah. senang utk bercerita dgn k.rose.

anyway, terngiang2 lagi ape kak rose kate ptg td...

'perut fizah besar betul.seolah2 mcm nak bersalin esok hari dah' hehe...betul tu k.rose. rasenye semua org pon notice kebesaran perut ku ini. masa family day PPIMI sabtu lepas pon, kak syu dan kak ida pon kate bende yg sama. haha...macammana la nanti perutku 6 minggu lagi bile dh due?huhu..sure lagi besar. kalau @33 weeks, baby's estimated weight is around 2 kg,dh besar mcm ni. nampaknya berat akan bertambah lagila since consultant predicted this baby's weight to be more than 3 kilos. berat baby naik, berat ibu lagi2 la.skrg pon dh sakit2 belakang menampung perut yg makin membesar...

alhamdulillah,syukur juga dlm kepenatan menguruskan rumahtangga dan sakit belakang yg x henti2 ini, ade suami yg memahami. sungguh ringan tangan membantu, bahkan tanpa diminta, menolong mengemas rumah. Alhamdulillah...thanks abang for being helpful. i love u...

Bank Holiday...

today is another another public holiday in ROI. i just knew that only Ireland celebrate bank holiday today.England and Wales, Scotland and Northern Ireland celebrate their bank holiday on the last Monday in May (last week). anyhow, today marks the 26th birthday for najmie. Happy birthday to u! May Allah bless u always. Mama's birthday also falls on this month,kan?

A bank holiday is a public holiday in both the United Kingdom and Ireland. There is some automatic right to time off on these days, although the majority of the population not employed in essential services (e.g. utilities, fire, ambulance, police, health-care workers, London Underground) receive them as holidays; those employed in essential services usually receive extra pay for working on these days. Bank holidays are often assumed to be so called because they are days upon which banks are shut, but this is not in fact the case. Some of the assumed bank holidays are days on which the banks are shut but are not, in fact, a bank holiday (e.g. Good Friday and Christmas Day). Legislation does not allow certain payments to be deferred to the working day.

In Republic of Ireland, the term "public holiday" is used officially, though "bank holiday" is used colloquially.

Good Friday is not a public holiday, though banks and public institutions are closed. The Summer Bank Holiday is also the first Monday in August rather than the last. A June Bank Holiday takes the place of the Spring Bank Holiday. Easter Monday and St Patrick's Day both qualify as National Days in the Republic.

Where public holidays fall at the weekend, an employee is entitled (at the employer's choice) to one of the following: a day off within a month, an additional day's paid annual leave or an additional day's pay. The employer can also choose one of these for regular public holidays, but this is rare. The public holiday does not, officially, move to the next weekday, but the usual practice is to take the day off on the next available weekday. A rarely-chosen alternative is to move to the previous or next church holiday.

The most recent public holiday to be added was Labour Day (often called May Day). This holiday is taken as the first Monday in May, and was introduced in 1994. Recently, senior politicians (including Ruairi Quinn TD) have been considering the addition of one or two extra public holidays to bring Ireland in line with the rest of Europe.

~copy paste from wikipedia~

nak buat ape ek arini??
bile bank holiday,semua kedai pon tutup. tu yg x best tu. pulak tu,nak jalan2 pon xtahu nakgi mana. BBQ lagi nak bang?? selalunya Irish ni amek peluang buat family day today. hubby pon cakap ade event kat Mardyke (gym) on his way back from hospital td. maybe family day kot...